part 10

What was I doing?! Am I an idiot!? This is my best friend! He's my bestest and my oldest and my first friend! He's the boy my parents never had, he's the guy I'm absolutely comfortable hanging out with (accept for the times where my mind wanders off, seeing him as more of a friend)! He's the guy that is allowed to stay in my room while I shower. He's the guy I trust with all my heart. He's the guy I can see being my kids' dad, the guy who will take care of us. Woah, I'm going ahead of myself! He's first and foremost my best friend, and that's what I'm going to concentrate on now. I'm not allowing myself to get excited over him admitting he has a crush on me, is crush too strong a word? I think it's more like liking me at a higher level; but the jealousy, his actions, the way he got mad when I couldn't see the truth, is it a crush?

Okay, stop it N!!! I have to talk to him. Speed dailing his number on my mobile, I waited and waited and waited.... Three rings, no answer, it normally took him at most two rings. Four rings, five rings, finally voicemail,

"Hala, this is Fahad, *my laugh heard in the back* leave a msg." Akh, I remember the time we recorded it as soon as he got his phone. We tried recording over and over again and seemed to fail every time because we were laughing too much. In the end he did this quick message where apparently my laugh is heard. That's it, I'm going over to his house, right now.

"Wain ray7a? I just got here!" Called my cousin, Rawan, from the kitchen.

"RAWAN!!!" I haven't seen her in two weeks since she traveled to Dubai, "Oh my God!! How are youu??" I ran to her and gave her a bear hug. Another person that I trust with almost everything. Fahad and her are the closest two people to me.

Just seeing her made me happy but as soon as she said, "I saw Fahad while driving on the way here, he looked miserable! 7ayl yiksir il 5a6ir!!", I felt terrible. She's a big sucker for Fahad, and I know what she means, he cares for other people, he always wants to see them happy, it's heartbreaking to see him sad.

"Was he really really sad?"

"Noufa, he looked miserable!! I never saw him like this! He just looked... I can't explain it, Noufa wallah yiksir il 5a6ir, I just didn't know what to tell him fa gilt 5al ayee asilich."

"Rawaaan, he says he liked me."

"Finally." She mumbled, "O intay il 5ibla ishsawaytay?! You didn't tell him you don't like him back did you?! You have a humongous crush 3alai!"

"I didn't say anything, I was too shocked." What did she say by finally? Ah! Did everyone else see it? "Yal 7mara why didn't you tell me anything!? Oo by the way lazim itgooleenlii 3an your trip, bas right now lazim akalim fahad, I'll be back in an hour or so."

"No worries, I'll be here, oo I'll tell you my own love drama!" She winked.

"Love drama?! Nooo! Really!?"She had the same morals and standards as I had on dating and stuff.

"Go, go! I missed you!"

"Missed you too." I went over and hugged her then left the house...