Five minutes later..
I paced around the room, waiting.
I was so nervous.... what was I going to say?
10 minutes later....
where is he?
18 minutes later....
19 minutes later...
*Dialing F's #*
"Fahad, wainiiik? Your house isn't that far, humph."
"Kani I'm on my way..."
"Min wain yay? Su3udiya?!"
"La2 nouf." He sighed, "Kint awa9il a7ad."
a7ad....= his girl again?
"Please be here soon!"
I heard the door downstairs shut and steps coming up, Fahad still didn't reply... I checked my phone, the conversation was still open.
"Kani I'm here." He opened the door of my room, smiling, the phone against his ear.
I looked at him, sighing, my heart melting... I still do love him, I really do.. he's Fahad. I smiled, I can't help it, he's Fahad.
"Sima3t ina 3ali biyee ilyoum, mabrook." He smiled politley.
and that's when I snapped.
"Fahad you have NO right to be like that!!!"
"Be like what?!"
"Polite and awkward oo chithi!!! You know what I mean....!!! AFTER ALL YOU ALREADY FELL IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE!!!"
"La2, Nouf, shino.... allah yi3afeech kamlay..."
I stayed silent.
"Nouf, I'm sorry." He replied, "I've been wanting to tell you forever."
"You're getting married ya3ni shino bihim? You chose 3ali!! You thought I'm going to wait for you laman I knew you already made up your mind TWO YEARS AGO?"
I felt a tear drop to my face.
"That's not true.... " My voice cracked, "I didn't choose for sure two years ago..." I replied..
But deep down,
I knew he was right....
I was sure right after my mom told me that Ali was a better fit, that I wanted him.
Fahad garab and wiped a tear from my face.
He's my best friend, how can he hurt me like that?!
I'm his best friend, how CAN I!? hurt HIM like that?
I went back to that day with my conversation with my mom and remembered all the events after that....
Oh My God.
What did I do?
"Oh my God!!! Fahad, I'm so sorry!!"
"Nouf, you were in love, you still are.... you're not responsible for your actions.. bas what you did bayan ina 5ala9, you belong with Ali!!"
I remembered the times Fahad called me oo I was always, always with Ali.... Fahad was still coming over daily but Ali was almost always there...
I remembered I promised him....
I sat down with him and PROMISED him that I'll be there with him on his sister's birthday and the day she died yearly after I found out about where he goes to see her.
Although I did stay with him on her birthday, I completly forgot before and made plans with Ali that took place in the morning.... He surprised me with letting me drive his car that day....
I remembered at FOUR PM that it's F's sister's birthday, our role model's birthday!!! and I rushed to him.
And the same went on with his sister's wifat day.....
Oh My God!!!!!!
and these things were tiny compared to all the rest I did to Fahad.
Tears started rushing down my face, "I'm so sorry Fahad, I really am!" I cried so hard and felt his arms wrap around me....
"Nouf, calm down..... It's okay.... it wasn't really, ya3ni I did needed you but I understand.... I fell in love too, 5al agoolich 3anha... I know you'll like her."
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